Standing by
All the way
I'm here to help you through your day
Holding you up when you're weak
Helping you find what it is you seek
Catching your tears when you cry
Pulling you through when the tide is high
Absorbing your voice when you talk
Standing by when you learn to walk
Just being there through thick and thin
It's true that everything's already over between us
But eventually H asked me to stay as his friend
Because i'm the only friend that he ever had
I always listen to him
Makes him laugh when he were upset
Catch him when he was falling
Be there for him just when he needs me
He felt that he can't bear to loose me as a friend
But on the other hand
Kind of afraid that this thing might be a problem
In my current life time
I had someone that i can not put a side
Meanwhile ....
I really can't left him alone
Someway he already lost his willing to live
He even said that if God wants him to die
Right here .. right now ...
So be it!!
Maybe it's for the best
Sorry J, I really can't leave him alone
Hope you can understand
I know you do ..
Love ya!!
JJ's BiRtHday ...
Dear JJ,
HaPpy BiRtHdaY to You HuNNy ...
I wisH You All the BEST in YouR Life ...
I wiSh You May Have all that You Ever Wanted In Your Life
Thanks For AlwaYs being TheRe in The WoRst Time Of My Life
Thanks For Always be My Smiling Place ...
Thanks For The 'catch' When I Fall Down That Time ...
You always make My Frowns do Flip Flops
That's wHy I reaLLy Glad To Have You In My Life ...
CrasH & BurN ...
To Love Someone is not EASY
If You have already found that someone that you love ....
KEEP IT!!
It's hard to find a needle in hay stack
What ever it takes
I believe you'll get through it
I do agree on that!! But the question is ....What if that someone NOT WORTH to be love by us??Do i have to keep him?What if that person doesn't deserve to be love by us?Do we have to hang in there and keep on hoping?I don't think so...Life goes on and on ...You deserve better than that ...I deserve better than that ..It hurts like hell when we keep on waiting, hoping and tryingMeanwhile they don't even know (or doesn't wanna know)How much we care about themHow much we love themIf you do have the same situation just like i have right now ...Gotta tell you ... Life goes onThere's so many people out there for youBetter be alone than keep hang in uncertain situationBetter off separated ...You don't know the meaning of someone Til one day you already LOST them ...
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting
I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things
I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn
Waduh last wiken Kemaren Bener2 kagak Ketemu Yayang neh (My CuShy Bed makSutnya)
..::: ThursDay March 10, 2005 :::..
PuLang Ngantor Langsung Ke JC aja doNg Bo ...
NiyatNya Maen bilyar mpe malem dah abis itu pulang.
Ternyata tempatnya asik juga bo (dengan catantan : yang 2nd floor yah)
And Then H call me ..
Well he did call me before and asked for dinner
but i said no!!
since he got his cousin and his friends' from S'pore.
Hell no!!!
After that about 10 pm he called again
and he told me that he is stress
and he's going to drunk ...
So I stay in JC til about 11.30 pm
then met him ..
JadiLah Ane NguruSin Doi yaNg Super duper Mabok Berat ....
He do have a lot problems lately.
Poor baby
..::: FriDay March 11, 2005 :::.
Pagi" dah JemPut dHiny di KLapa Gadeng
doi Ngajakin KriMbat Aja dooong ....
after that qta jemput sodaranya leo
n cao ke oh la la sarinah thamrin ...
eh pindah lagi aja dong ke setiabudi
end up with watching lousy suck movie "Banyu Biru".
Man that movie really suck ...
Mana cuma sejam lagi (ya lebih2 dikiiittt laaaa)
After that go to HARD ROOOOOOOOCCKKKK!!!
Tipsy aja mpe pagi gituh looohhhh ....
dhiny calling2 temen2nya semua.
Hueh capeeeeekkkk ....
I don't even know how in the hell i could be in bed.
..::: Saturday March 12, 2005 :::..
Bangun jam 8 ---- tidur lagi ---- bangun jam 11 ---- mandi
cabooottttt ke citos maen bilyar (lagi) mpe jam 4 ma anak2 semalem ..
Heran masih punya tenaga ya buat maen
after semalem tipsy
Maennya juga udah ga jelas gitu ....
Cabut lagi jam 4 ....
Ke PS ambil spatu -- yang -- udah -- dibetulin -- selama -- 2 hari
sambil ketemu ma sysy ...
Dah capek ngobrol langsung aje ke ibis ...
ketemu dini en tepar setepar-teparnya ....
..::: Sunday March 13, 2005 :::..
Saatnya untuk pulaaaaaaaaaaaang
Tapi mampir makan dulu sih di GM Sarinah
Duh capeeeee .....
Sampe rumah ... mandi ... tidur mpe PAGEEEEEE!!!!!!
Man i do feel really really tired rite now ....
(angel inside my head says : Ya iyalaaahhh dugem ga kenal waktu aja ... dasar dudulz)
JusT iN BeTw33N ...
Lie to me, say that you need me
That's what I wanna hear
That is what, what makes me happy
Hoping you'll be near
All this time .. how could I know
Within these walls .. I can feel you
Another day goes by .. will never know just wonder why
You made me feel good .. made me smile
I see it now and I can say it's gone
That would be a lie
Cannot control this .. this thing called love
You must think .. how can this be
You don't really know me
I can't tell, this ain't the time
You'll never be mine
What can I say .. something 'bout my life
I just lost again
Always have to move on ..
To leave it all behind
Go along with time
(Another day - Lene Marlin)
Met someone ...
Just in the right time ...
He just kinda make my day ..
Do make me laugh ... a lot ... everytime ...
Do pay attention
Just about time when he wasn't here
When i need him the most ..
Now, i just don't know what to do ...
Heleeeppppp ....
RocKiN WiK3n!!!
Watched the re-run of OpRaH .... Got Struck in the head with tHis word Of Hers ...The Line goes This way .....The Future is Not Happen YET
The Past is OVER
Your ETERNITY is RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW!!!
God damn this weekend i'm really exhausted ....Starting from Thursday til Sunday never home...Sampe-sampe ada yang komentarin muke gue leceeeeeeeekkkk banget ....Hari Jum'at pergi mpe Subuh baru pulang ....Gue juga bingung kenapa juga musti ga jelas ....Untung aja gue ketemu MANUSIA GILA yang bikin gue NGAKAAAAAAAAKKKKK semaleman ..Thanks ya Juuuu ....You're The Best Man!!!!I just dunno what to do with him ....Hwaaaa ... I wish you were here ...Then I will KICK your DAMN ASS!!!!You shouldn't be afraid to love and to be loved back ...To have someone that loved you means everything ...Got to earn that ... or you'll lost that ..It's not that i'm asking or pushing you to do something serious for me ...God nooooo ....You gotta learn to trust me .... not to turn your back and walk away ...Just face it ....Got a bit disappointment for youSomehow ... You weren't here when i need you the most!!Don't need your moneyDon't need you to buy me somethingDon't need all that DAMN thing a bitJust need your support ... Maybe i should re-consider about everything
Think of something makes you happy ...
And you will fly ....
This words sound nice ..
and easy to do when we're in a good mood
or especially when we're in Love
But i do not have a very good mood lately ...
Thank God I was very very busy with work
So i don't give a damn shit about personal problems
But can you imagine in the middle of a night ...
His shadow appears and won't get out of my head ...
In a normal moment i will really enjoy and glad that he comes
Even only his shadow ...
But now ...
Do really get sooooo tortured with that ...
It seems that this time
He wasn't there for me when i need him the most
To support me ....
I do understand that he had problems ...
But please don't put me aside ..
I know i can not help you a lot ..
But at least you always have my ears to listen
And my shoulder to cry on ..
Breaks my heart to see you fallen apart
Don't you know
that i really do care about you
You're not just someone who they think you are
Just believe in yourself
That you're really meant something
At least for me
I don't care about all those dummies said
They even don't really know about what they said
So please give yourself a break
Love yourself
