MaHad3wi SopHie: January 2005

Monday, January 24

wHoLe wik!!

Pagi2 bonyok dah bikin bete aja ...
Ngomentarin masalah gue yang sering banget hang out ma H ... Ngerti sih kalo they only worried about me getting hurt. But FOR GOD SAKE I'm not a baby anymore. If i did something than i must be prepared for the caused. They thought that we had a serious relationship. Well .. for now all i can say is that we just being friends .. and if it's end up with something serious .. Then i'm not the one who sacrifice my beliefs. Then ... if that happen ... that will be the time i have to choose. Tapi kalo sekarang .. i don't feel threaten by anything. We just friends. Even sometimes yeah i do admit that we do feel something. But that doesn't mean anything IF we have nothing to commit, right? For me (i said that) to start a serious relation with someone is not that easy. Plus he held something different with me. I knew that. So please don't treat me as a baby who can not think rationally. I've been there before and already had that heartache. i just want to go with the flow. Duh .. It's not that i'm going to be wed with him or something!!!!

Last weekend ...

^_* Tuesday (January 18, 2005)

It was H's b'day ... Gave him b'day cake ... berhubung dah agak lumer .. jadilah minta disuapin (ugh dasar cowok gak mau repot). Tinggal mangap doang deh dia, en walhasil tangan gue belepetan. yaiks ... dia ga tau aja gue blom cuci tangan ... Huehueheuehueheuheuheuhue ... (Just kidding!!)

~_~ Wednesday (January 19, 2005)

Raining hard .. so in de morning i got STUCK in traffic jam for 2 DAMN hours aja ... And in da afternoon, mengantisipasi kemungkinan STUCK untuk kedua kalinya di TRAFFIC , gue nongkrong dulu deh di Mid ma H .. And baru cabut 9.30 deh .. Eh Buset tetep aja macet gitu looh di Highway. Nyampe di rumah almost 11.00 gilak!!!
Hate this day!!!

@_@ Thursday (January 20, 2005)

Sempet tergoda bujukan Setan H buat ikut ke Bandung en bolos kantor ... Huehuehuehueh .. En ngeliyat pagi2 dah ujan lagi (Wekz .. bakalan tepos lagi nih pantat stuck di bus 2 jam!!) Maleeeeeeeessss aja bawaannya. Tapi teringat janji Finance Director gue kalo "we will have this 'lil party going on with Baileys and the gank this afternoon" mengobarkan semangatku untuk pegi ke kantor!!! Walopun gue macet2 di jalan lagi for 2 F**kin hours (again) and guess what this time ... BERDIRI dengan suksesnya!!
Sorenya .. yeah we do had that party in small meeting room. Gile yee. If you want to know your friend's secret ... Just make them on a high .. They will tell you everything that you asked gladly ... Wahahahahah .. Went home about 9.05 by OJEK lagi. Untung kagak jatoh gue. Wakakakakak (doyong2 gitu naek ojek giliiiing!!) untung aja jalanan sepiiiiiiiiiiiiii abeeeeezzzz ...
Sempet diomelin H coz i went home alone!!

+_+ Friday (January 21, 2005)

Lebaran Haji ... Gue gak solat Id ajah loh .. Hueh sebel!! ya salah gue sih dibangunin yang keluar cuma suara melenguh-melenguh .. Ya udah. She finally gave up!!
Woke up in about 10 o'clock. Suddenly, H called and asked me to book a ticket right away. Since he didn't wanna go at all, he din't have any preparation for that!! But his mom INSIST him to come at his bro's wedding. Lagian udah dibilangin dateng aja sih .. tapi emang dasar STUBBORN .. dia malah ngeloyor ke Bandung hari Kamisnya. Now Look what happened!!
So after that i pick him up in Halim Airport go straight to Cengkareng. Man!! Udah ga kenal rem kalee..

^o^ Saturday (January 22, 2005)

GirL's Day OuT ..
Definetely all girls ... Ngopi sambil nongkrong plus ktawa2 ma temen2 cewek emang SERUUUWWW abis.
Peserta :
+ Ayieks : Promotor yang giliiiing banget. Kalo ada manusia inih emang kagak bisa brenti2 ngakak. Bawaannya ngecengin orang muluw sambil ngeracunin juga (maklum BIG DEMON!!)
+ Mbak Heny : The most unsinful person among us ... :))
+ Dian 'Gr3tan : Wah nih makhluk kaga jelas antara ngikut aliran sesat ato teteeepp di jalan yang benar??
Ketemu lagi ma Herdy (waiter Coffe Club) yang lumayan 'ehem'. Malah jadi cela-celaan ma dia. Wahhahahaha..Lumayan takaran minuman ditambahin ;)
Balik ga malem2 banget, sampe rumah ngejuprak aja di kamar nonton DVD en sms-an mpe tengah malem ma H.

o_o Sunday (January 23, 2005)

Manyun sendirian di rumah .. H balik en langsung telfon ngajakin nonton. Tapi apa mau ikata ... I wasn't allowed to go out today :(
Ya udahlah gue abisin aja baca 'DA VINCI CODE'-nya Dedy. Man ... That book is damn GREAT. 4 Thumbs UP deh ...

Friday, January 14

Love is confuSing ...

Ada SaaTnya Aku iNgin Menikmati Indahnya Cinta ...

Tapi Di SaaT Lain ...

DenGan KesendiriAnku ...

Aku Merasa Lebih Bahagia ...

Thursday, January 13

Wh33L of LiFe

The wheel of life really keeps on turning yaa ...
Right now I'm happy with my life,
with my new job (Gosh .. finally one of my wish came true!! Thank God),
with someone who close to me right now (Thanks H).
You already been supportive right now
and always give me great advises. For Life, Love and even job. =)

While i'm happy i kinda feel sad too for one of my friend
who seems have problems with her life lately.
Yang kuat ya neng ...
Just remember

"When everything is all messed up, just close your eyes for five seconds and remember all the GOOD things that you've done"

That will make you so much better ....

Actually it really hard to leave this office.
I love the community.
We're like family.

Well i've been here for 1,5 years
and so many things that i've been going through ..
Break ups and make ups.
Good time and bad time.
Funky boss and bitchy boss.

I remember the first time that i came here with my nerdy glasses
and with that Innocent Looking i had.
But now it became Innocent Looking B**ch .. wahahahah ..

Many experince that i got while i'm working here ..
It's something that even money can't buy.
Teach me how to be strong and mature.
Teach me how to survive. Yeah ... not bad ... =))
Thanks all for all your support!! I'm going to miss you all!

Tuesday, January 4

NeW Year and AccidEnTaLLy CheMistrY

NEVER BEEN EASY, IF…

It’s never been easy whether you have a disaster or a joy
If you don’t decide from which side you’ll see

It’s never been easy to love or to hate
If you don’t learn how this feelings grows

It’s never been easy to trust or not to trust
If you don’t recognize the people around

It’s never been easy to be happy or sad
If you don’t give your self a chance to show it

It’s never been easy to be brave or to be coward
If you don’t know the difference in between

It’s never been easy to help or not to help
If you don’t think how its going to make a change

It’s never been easy to be angry or to be patience
If you don’t draw the limitation lines

It’s never been easy to say or not to say
If you don’t take the responsibilities that goes with your words

It’s never been easy, to laugh or to cry
If you don’t realize when the proper time to do

It’s never been easy to condolence or to celebrate
If you can’t see the worth of a tears and a smile

It’s never been easy to praying or partying
If you can’t feel what a heart are for

On the 1st day on January 2005,

even i didn't have a very crazy party at new year's eve

but i did feel something when finally i reached 2005

Feeling so grateful that i still can breathe

i still can work

i still can eat my lunch and dinner

Still can play around and fool around

And i also can feel this ACCIDENTALLY CHEMISTRY ...

Why do i have to tell this is accientally?

Because i didn't have any intention to have that chemistry ...

Just like an accident

Struck my head and my heart with that ...

i still do the best i can to avoid this

Cos i really love my single life

The time i ignore all that feeling and don't care bout anybody ..

It's all about Me, Myself and I ..

The thing is

i start to get used with his presence around me

Get used with him fulfilling my day =))

Nice but really scary ...

Wish you all enjoy every single day in the upcoming year

Coz i wish that too .. and i'm going to enjoy it as best as i could!!!

Wish for 2005 :

1. Get a new job in HR field and (of course) with better salary for God sake!!

+ Have been sick with my current job .. I do like the sweet revenge. Leave immediately without telling the replacement how to do the job properly ... wahahahahah ..

2. Have someone who can be best friend, brother, lover and father. All in one package!!

+ameeeennn ...

3. Love myself more and more (same to you Hen!!)

+ Means quit doing something that harm yourself. Your health an your heart =))

4. Having fun with my life and with the unusual way ...

+ Try bungee, rafting and doing dangerous sports ... Love it!!

5. Make the people that i love happy especially my family ..

+ Sorry for the trouble that i have caused last year. Should have listen to you .... DAMMIT!!